It Is Well With My Soul: The Painful Reality

You are here.  On my computer screen.  I see you, your beautiful blue eyes.  Your smile.  That wicked expression on your face telling me you are up to no good.  Telling me that your beautiful brain wants to unleash something witty and sarcastic on me.  I look at you, with your funny silly t-shirts and…

I never thought you would forget the name of the man who paralyzed your son. I never thought you would forget how to turn on a computer. I never thought you would forget if you ate anything all day long. I never thought you would forget how to tie your shoes. I never thought you…

Your breath was stuck in your throat As if a stack of books were resting on your chest not allowing your lungs to expand And you couldn’t think of what to do But you could still hit send And a lifeline was sent Sent to someone who knows Knows what it feels like to not…

Today feels suffocating The loss  The sadness The uncomfortable feelings that come with loss and sadness People say to breathe but how can I when my lungs don’t seem to work? If one more person tells me a platitude I might need bail money And yet I keep moving One foot in front of the…

My homework was to sit and grieve Dad.  Be still in my sadness.  In the pain.  I couldn’t get myself to do it.  When I sit and think of Dad my brain slams down walls so that I can’t go too far down the path.  But when I write about Dad, my brain can’t slam…