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Two Months
This is a guest blog, the write being a good friend of mine who I adore. In late 2023, my dear friend Sami lost her 21 year old son, Ian, to suicide. I had the privilege to attend his funeral services and it was the most painful and hard service I have ever attended. Below…
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Don’t Want To
I don’t want you to know what it’s like To watch your Grandma forget I don’t want you to know what it’s like To have to hold on to the good memories to stop the tears I don’t want you to know what it’s like To become your Grandma’s caregiver I don’t want you to…
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Today I watched
A father be a pallbearer A mother lay flowers on the casket A mother and her daughters lean on each other as they walked A husband and wife hold each other up A family shake with grief Friends pray for one more day A father give a eulogy A mother offer her support A boldness…
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The Cup The Father Has Given Me
Then Simon Peter, who had a sword, drew it and struck the high priest’s servant, cutting off his right ear. (The servant’s name was Malchus.) Jesus commanded Peter, “Put your sword away! Shall I not drink the cup the Father has given me?” John 18:10-11 What is the cup my Father has given me? *…
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Again
It is here again. The painful reality. The diagnosis. My mom has Dementia/Alzheimer’s. We just lost Dad a minute ago. How can we go through this again? Go through the loss. The constant grief. Watching someone who gave her all for me to have a great life, only to lose her memory of who I…
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Her
You would be amazed at how grown up she is You would be in awe of her stubbornness You would would smile wide and laugh hard at her wit and sarcasm You would argue with her on how important math is in life You would sit and talk about how mind blowing the moon, sun…
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One Year
It was a Friday afternoon The sun was shining There was a slight breeze Mom was there sleeping with you in your room Just the two of you Partners Sometimes in crime Most of the time in love Your body said ‘no more’ You took your last breath and I took my first breath without…
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Here
You are here. On my computer screen. I see you, your beautiful blue eyes. Your smile. That wicked expression on your face telling me you are up to no good. Telling me that your beautiful brain wants to unleash something witty and sarcastic on me. I look at you, with your funny silly t-shirts and…
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Never/Always
I never thought you would forget the name of the man who paralyzed your son. I never thought you would forget how to turn on a computer. I never thought you would forget if you ate anything all day long. I never thought you would forget how to tie your shoes. I never thought you…
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Breathe
Your breath was stuck in your throat As if a stack of books were resting on your chest not allowing your lungs to expand And you couldn’t think of what to do But you could still hit send And a lifeline was sent Sent to someone who knows Knows what it feels like to not…